Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Disorganized, Disconnected, Disturbing

Lately it has felt like practically everything in my life is out of my control. Good work is getting done on the house, but like all old homes, every step of the way seems much more difficult and more time consuming and more messy than it needs to be and somehow escalates so that I am completely overwhelmed. Of course, with all home improvements, the period before the home is improved often finds the home vastly unimproved. 

I feel as though I can't but make wrong choices and life is more complicated at every turn. Everything seems like it is just harder than it needs to be. Not that I'm complaining that life should be all peaches and roses, but lately I just can't seem to handle it all. Financially, emotionally, spiritually, I am disconnected and frustrated. Drained. 

Fortunately, today was a good day. Hubby made a fantastic breakfast for us all this morning, the sun actually was shining and it was quite warm. Warm enough to go for a walk to the park and see the lake monster. Plus, I captured some fabulous pics of my kiddo. Crazy little munchkin makes me laugh all day. Here you see the most common phrase of hers, "Come on." She doesn't prefer to play alone lately, always wanting Mama or Dada to be at least near her if not playing with her. She gestures her little hand to you and you can't help but take it and follow wherever she leads. 


Kristina said...

Fantastic pics, Anne.

Hope your week picks up for you. Rest up and enjoy your beautiful girl :)

Kris said...

I always struggle through that part of improvement projects-where you are committed, but haven't seen much real improvement, and everything seems like a mess that will never end....yeah. been there.
BUT, it does, and I am always happy when it's done.
try to make yourself a 'clean place' where you can get away from the mess, just for a little while. Hope you can spend some more time outside this week!

Jean said...

Those in between times are the hardest where it seems like it's never going to get done. Hang in there, continue to enjoy that little Sweetness and the tall love of your life. :)

me said...

Blame it on the hormones - I'm not doing anything to my house (not that it doesn't desperately need it!) and I feel very much the same way!

Wishing you lots more sweet moments with your precious girl. She's so cute!

Tricia said...

I am on the EXACT same page with is overwhelming right now! I don't have an answer just wanted you to know I am with you!