Monday, May 08, 2006

Russian Spies

Just finished a great book today. Nelson Demille is undoubtably in the list of my favorite authors. He writes very intriuging stuff. The novel I just completed was called The Charm School and was all about Russian espionage in the late 80's. He is one of those type of authors that always make me want to learn more about the history of whatever I have been reading. I know very little about Russian history and it is a very interesting part of the world. Their culture, their philosophy, everything they do. It was/is so counter to how we live in our American world. So many things that cause me to think about my culture, my philosophy, what I do.

I am home sick today. It started middle of last week and progressed to where I am not a very pleasant person to be around right now. Well, I'm still friendly, but rather gross I guess.

Anyway, I am about to have a lifestyle shift. That started quite some time ago, but will be coming to a head shortly. It's exciting, but scary at the same time. It's relieving, but more stressful in the same breath. All that has brought me to more closely analyze how and why I live the way I do.

How many of my choices are so purely selfish, I don't even know it myself? Who do I consider when I'm making these important decisions? Am I choosing what I choose to serve myself, to serve my family, to serve my friends, or to serve my Lord? Do I care who I am serving? And if I don't, then what does that mean?

Is it even as big of a deal as I am making it out to be in my head? It's just another step in the road. It's not really that life-altering, is it? For the better. For the best.

Maybe more things in life really are bigger deals than we make them be. How I choose to do the dishes or not. What I choose to watch on tv or not. What I read. What is better? What is best?

Ah yes. Sunshine is better today. Rest is best for my body. I can have both today. But what about tomorrow? My heart needs to be better. My soul needs to be best. My spirit has not had rest though my body has.

So I change. My lifestyle. My schedule. My choices. For the better. For the best.


Carbon said...

Get lots of rest and clear your mind. Hope you feel better soon.

Hillary said...

Wow! You sure have a way of building up suspense! :)

I hope you're feeling better! Sick sucks!

heather said...

anne - beautiful post...thanks for sharing your heart.

i have to admit that i thought you meant you were 'homesick' not 'home. sick.' until i read the comments. silly me. hope you feel better soon.

anne said...

I'm back at work today...still yucky, but manageable.

More shareable news soon. :)

Jean said...

definitely for the best :)